Well, it's been a year and a half since Cheryl passed, and I went out on my first date. And really it's been more like 31 1/2 years, considering her and I were married for 28 years, and together about 2 years before getting married. Needless to say, it's been a long time since I dated a woman. Well, it happened. Christmas day. With Mariah. We had dinner at Luna Bella, or Bella Luna, whatever it is. Anyway, it was fantastic! We had a great 2 hour dinner, then went to the movie - The Girl With The Dragon Tattoo. She is more beautiful than the pics. We are going out again on New Years Day. She will have her 4 year old son with her New Years Eve, so she'll be staying home. So we're going to Bisbee, and probably also explore the Coronado Cave south of Sierra Vista in the Coronada National Monument area in the mtns there. I've been there before so I know what to expect, she's a little nervous about it. It's a completely undeveloped cavern. We've been txt'ing and emailing and calling each other many times a day every day. I feel like a 14 year old with his first girlfriend. heheheh. Jeez, that first date was so hard! I didn't know what to do, I didn't know if I could try to hold her hand, or put my arm around her. nothing, I was a wreck of confliction. I don't think that's a real word. Oh well. Really, dating is not like riding a bike, you don't just hop back on and ride like you never stopped. I am sure though that this next date/day trip will be much different, in that I will hold her hand, put my arm around her, and maybe even give her a kiss! heheheh. I tell ya, the whole evening I was nervous. In the theatre we sat so our shoulders touched, and my hand was right there within inches of her knee. Yet I didn't put my hand on her leg. I just didn't know if she would think I was being too forward, yet I wanted to. She took some candy out of her purse during the movie, asked me if I wanted some, I said Yeah. As she held her hand out and I reached to get the candy I let my fingers linger against hers longer than one normally would. So soft and warm. heheheh, and I couldn't get up the nerve to hold her hand or put mine on her knee. I was mentally kicking myself as we were walking out to the cars. I reached around her to put my arm around her, I felt her hair, so soft, so beautiful, and let my arm fall to my side. We hugged each other, a nice full warm hug, and said goodnight and talk to you later and see you later etc etc, and I didn't give her a goodnight kiss! jeez! Could I have been any more of a dumb 14 year old kid? I just kept thinking I didn't want to come across as being too forward, and kicking myself for not doing more. But she sent me a sweet txt and email the next day, and has been since. We've been talking and emailing and txt'ing since. Wow! What to do? How do I keep this going? heheheh, see, it's not easy. I do know this though - she's a keeper, she's smart and beautiful, she's sexy and approachable. And best of all - she likes me. Wow!
heheheh, it was a great date, and I'm really looking forward to Monday. I am sure I won't be so much of a nervous wreck. At least I hope not.